ok, life has been one hell of a vicious busy ride lately. I have to say most of my problems are of my own accord but still its a bit much.

Here goes, long story short style:
me = stupid
--> her = angry
--> me = apologize and beg for forgiveness
--> her = lost trust and forgives
--> her = watches me like a hawk
--> me = dont like someone over my shoulder
--> me = keep screwing up
--> her = keeps getting hurt and forgiving
--> me = getting better
--> her = doesn't matter because its not fixed

repeat the last 4 several times and here i am. i really dont think we are going to make it and it saddens me. i love her to death but this relationship is becoming very unloving and both of us are too stubborn to quit to make both of us much happier.

besides that and my getting a "D" in English last quarter because I did minimal effort on a research paper and then my teacher lost it, life isn't so horrible. I only talk to people at work, i don't really hang out with friends, no social networking sites but i've got my video games and they are holding me over.

My daughter is the sweetest girl ever! I really hope she stays so laid back when she grows up and she doesn't cry unless she really needs something. she hates tummy time but loves to stand up and dance. she loves to spend time with people and hates being left alone for too long but she such a happy baby that has slept through the night since she was just a couple weeks old so i'm happy.

The job is ok. Nothing much going on really. I go to work to surf the internet and get paid for it but its about to change as we vamp up for this system conversion. I'm going to be writing a lot of reports and still have my role as production support. sweet work environment and my boss is BA.

Guess that's it for the update. I do have some things I was stirring around with, I just have to find some time to post them. I really am going to stick around this time (i hope)

peace out